Two thousand and twelve so far

I’m not gonna lie..It’s been a rough year. I’ve been through a lot. I’ve constantly felt like I have no clue whatsoever what I’m doing with my life. My feelings towards a fair few of the people in my life have changed. I’ve quit my job of almost 4 years, been unemployed for longer than i’d have liked, been completely broke to the point where I couldnt buy food, I’ve started at a new job, I’ve contemplated selling my car to move overseas, I’ve been down.. I’ve been up.. more times than I can count. I’ve lost friends, I’ve gained friends, I’ve had people close to me move away, I’ve fallen in and out of love.. too many times. I’ve been hurt, I’ve hurt others. I’ve been in hospital, I’ve been to the doctors more times than I can count on both hands, I’ve been on and off different medications and dealing with stress, anxiety and health problems. I’ve made promises I’ve broken and had people let me down.

Now a lot of this sounds like stuff that would have usually brought me down. HARD. But, for the first time since I can even remember. I feel content. Sometimes bad things have to happen to get you to a good place. Now don’t get me wrong, I still have barely a clue what’s in store for me over the next 6 months but I’m not stressing about it this time. I’m happy. I’m focused. My head is right where it needs to be. I’m eating healthy. I’m gymming everyday, if not twice a day. I’m surrounding myself with the people I care most about and the people that truly care about me. No more lies, no more bullshit, no more hard feelings. I’m just focusing on myself, focusing on being happy, moving on and becoming someone I would look up to. And feeling great while doing it. After all there’s no way to move but forward.

My Mantra:

“Once a page is turned, it’s best to focus on the rest of the story.”

Peace xx